On Grief, Loss and Coping | Psych Central – Part 2

When I was driving my mom and I to the hospital, I knew that my father, who had been on a ventilator for about two months, couldn’t breathe anymore, even with this heavy-duty machine. My mom got the call from the doctor as we were at least 40 miles away. She remained calm. Tearless. I knew my dad was dying and they were asking her permission to take him off the ventilator. His breaths were escaping through his five chest tubes. But she didn’t say a word to me. (This was a gift I’ll never forget.) We drove in silence, as I clutched the wheel and refused to lose my composure. We drove in silence, while I tried to keep us safe and keep myself sane at the wheel. That day was weird. For me, it was a mix of tears and numbness. At the service, there were more tears and even laughter (when the Rabbi read a funny memory my cousin had written). But largely, I felt empty. I wondered where the torrent of tears had gone. And I thought there was something wrong with me. That I didn’t love my father

Source: On Grief, Loss and Coping | Psych Central – Part 2

About Sue Rosenbloom, M.A., C.T.

Thanatologist: Loss and Grief Specialist My Blog is for educational purposes only. I am not a licensed professional counselor - Bachelor of Arts in Human Studies - Marylhurst University (2007)- Certificate in Thanatology - Hood College (2008) Master of Arts in Thanatology - Hood College (2009) Certificate in Thanatology - The-Association for Death Education and Counseling (The highest level of loss and grief education). * Hospice, Alzheimers and Senior's Advocate * Former first responder for Trauma Intervention Program, Inc. (TIP) * Hospice and Bereavement Volunteer for Providence Hospice Bereavement Program * Association for Death Education and Counseling Member * National Alliance for Bereavement of Children * Hood College Thanatology Association * American Group Psychotherapy Association * Marylhurst Gerontolgy Association * Oregon Gerontology Association * Hospice, Loss, Grief and Bereavement Researcher * Creative Writer
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